We recently moved, and as I was packing up our old house, I found a notebook in which I had written this post in 2008. It was the only thing in the entire notebook. I’ve certainly grown a lot since I wrote this, but it amazes me knowing where I was at in my life at that point that these words flowed. This post intrigued me so I wanted to share it here. There is so much wisdom here – so much truth! Still a timely piece.
Everything Under The Sun – Memories have faded ~ and with them so have pieces of your heart.
Rainy days, lullabies, memories of days gone by. A smile, a hello ~ where has all of the time gone? So much has changed. The face that stares back at you still resembles pictures of your youth ~ where did all of those grey strands come from? When did those creases appear? You don’t recall them being there yesterday. Your heart feels sad, but you don’t understand why. You choose not to relive the days of old ~ some of them were just too painful. Then again ~ to be able to visit those moments that you wish you could have frozen in time ~ to see their faces again ~ to be in their arms ~ to open those areas of your heart that you closed off ~ what would that be like?
You reminisce of favorite moments ~ there are so many moments that defined you ~ but how many moments did you define? There are moments that took your breath away ~ there are moments that warmed your heart. You wonder how many moments you impacted for others. How many lives and hearts have you touched without even being aware? Sometimes you just sit and wonder what your purpose is in life ~ sometimes you think you may know, and other times you just keep moving forward without a clue. There are things that you do know for certain. Perhaps this is where most of your time should be spent in reflection. You know that your heart has never changed. It has been wounded, scarred and closed off throughout your life. But do you remember your youth? Do you remember the tenderness and the love you felt? It is still there ~ You strive for that feeling everyday of your life. You long for what you know is true. All of the bad layers can be peeled away ~ closed areas can be opened again. Your heart is beautiful. It was created with such a deep love. It was created and admired as being good and perfect. Even if you hide your heart, there are those that still see its beauty. Find peace in that. Find peace in the things that don’t ever change.
Have you ever had a moment when everything was still and silent and you felt consumed with peace? That feeling can always be felt if you just close your eyes and relive that moment.
Sometimes life is so hard. You have so many dreams and desires ~ you have faith that you will see them fulfilled. Dreams give you hope to keep going and keep reaching. But how do you enjoy where you are and count the present time as a blessing? You have to give your dreams and desires to the one that gave them to you in the first place. You have to fix your eyes and your heart on your first True Love. You have to give Him all of your burdens, all of your worries, all of your pain. You simply have to love Him with pure abandon ~ worship Him with the heart He gave you. Follow Him and know that He won’t lead you astray. Define your moments with your truth and convictions. Stand firm and walk in truth and light. Define your moments – don’t let them define you! Only your True Love defines you – and that was done before the beginning of time. Reflect on what is good and pure and true ~ search for THAT in your heart! It has always been and always will be! Yesterday – today and tomorrow!